26/07/2012

Dear Diary,

I'm so heated right now I feel like I need to scream.  I'm so confused and not sure if this is a symptom of PTSD or just a normal reaction to stressful situations.

I'm so fed up of con artists, I've been duped out of a holiday to Jamaica, I'm having trouble coping with a situation, I can't abide people who hurt my mother or son, why do people think it necessary to lie on individuals, and try to ruin their reputation? Just do you get on with your life!

This person took advantage of my family during their bereavement, abused my trust by claiming to be all about the community, when really that was a half truth in actual fact they delight in money and self accolade.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'm perfect, I enjoy what money can do, however I couldn't enjoy the spoils of someone else's misery.  I also enjoy hearing good things from people about me it makes my day, I enjoy admiration, however I need the love of God, my mother and son more than anything in this world nothing else matters as much as this because when I react in emotion because of how passionate I become about a cause for justice, my son will speak logical and my mother spiritual they balance me.

So when I know someone is hurting them knowing what good people they are it disturbs me and I ask myself how can someone harm a child and a community elderly and claim to be all about their heritage and for empowering the community?

But then my mother told me something "hurting people hurt people" and that calmed my stormy waters.  

I just want to tell it from the roof tops and let everyone know what a lying con artist this person is, but my Mum told me "anything done in secret comes out in the end, it may take years but the truth will prevail!" and that's a true JAMAICAN woman right there.

So I leave you with this a wolf in sheep clothing has to come out in the end, as it cannot survive on the nutrients of grass all it's life, it will need to prey on meat sooner or later, and that's when I will be there by the grace of God to witness your true colours.

24/07/12

Dear Diary,


In agony right now but it may be self inflicted as Sunday night I supported the "Radio Cardiff Youth Beats" team to go along to the "BiggaFish Champions Tour" . 


Their brief was to set up interview questions, take photos, and enjoy.  I wanted them to gain work experience but also enjoy themselves, especially as this was a teen spirit building inspired event.

However I didn't plan for one thing, I'm a little out of touch with teenage girls and my son's co-host Becki H did the whole "OMG it's Karis from Stooshe... OMG Flow Dem... OMG ... OMG" it's quite amusing now I think about it at the time it drove my son bonkas LOL!  But I adore her she's a sweet heart, and I'm so glad she actually came out of herself and serenaded Karis, who told her she was "gifted" a kind word goes a long way.


Artists on the night were "Flow Dem", "Chip" a.k.a "Chipmunk", "Roxanne" (I love her btw) "Lady Leshurrr" there were quite a few local acts supporting this event too.

I was extremely impressed with one guy in particular and that was "Mizzy" he's on point.  I was also charmed by "Evander K" a part of the "Hypeon TV" family, I can't beleive he is related to Monica and Nadine Kennedy, small world, very lovely 
young man.
Pic courtesy of: http://www.facebook.com/HypeOnTV

I was also touched by the fact local MC's/DJ's/Singers took the time to have banter with my son, he often looks forward to being around positive young men who are also aspiring to achieve their goals.  My son was looking forward to watching the 
masters in action, he had arranged to get some tips from the "Urban Fusion Crew" however he realised he needed to keep watch over his co-host and not leave her behind :).

The truth be known, I was not well enough to take on this task, my fibromyalgia symptoms have been quite erratic and because I've been driving I've not been able to take certain medications which have had a negative effect on me.  However when you're at these media events 
you can't afford to show it, you just press along and putting other peoples needs before your own becomes natural, you're there to catch moments for the fans who can't get up close and personal with their favourite artists, the questions you ask represent the community you serve. Imagine what the world would be like with no media? No radio, no papers, no online media social networks, no journalists looking for the truth!

The downside of the night is the after effects for me, my hands are so swollen, my feet are the size of party balloons, and physically I'm a mess.  But you know emotionally I'm blessed because Becki's father told me how she had a permanent smile on her face when she went home, CJ had an awesome time with "SneakBo" and I had an awesome time around a lot of positive people.

All of the above could not have been possible without Schwarz believing in my sons capabilities he is an amazing young man and he has a good heart! "Blaqbone Media" I salute you.